♥ Sher ;

05 January, 2010 ; 10:43 PM♥

Everytime I turned back & looked.

Sighs, rotting at home since starting of th week :(
Supposed to go to work but, sadly, i cant get up.
Having sleep disorders.
Somehow, im like a vampire. Eeks ~
Now, only till 4a.m till morning, then i could get to sleep & wakeup in th next day late afternoon.
In fact, i find myself so useless.
Im trying so hard to buck up & earn for wad my parents wan but i cant :(
Heard my mum saying things about me, wad can i do?
I can only hide myself somewhere & take as nothing happened.
Besides that, there's nothing i can do.
This feelings sucks :(
I seriously need a job but my sleeping disorders caused me this way.
When im in SGH, all my goals was made with pple around & make me success in almost everything, but, now?
After i discharged, no one for me to rely on & no one is there to guide me thru.
Wad else can i do?
My mum's working Nightlife job which i dun get to see her every now & then.
We speak less than 10 sentences each day.
& all she picks on are all my weakness instead of strengths.
This make me thought i rather rot & make wad she said true instead of proving her WRONG!
Why? Caused even if i does, she wont see it as well.
So, why mus i?
Thats also th reason i chose to stay in SGH than to discharge & lead this kind of life.
My dad? Worse still, all he know was to gave me money.
My brother? Never i speak to him more than 10 sentences per year.
Family? I wonder wad is it?

03 January, 2010 ; 11:02 PM♥

To that small kiddo named KELLY when you're actually named *W*E*Y.
Firstly, im so thankful that you made a effort to spam my blog.
& making so much entertainment to make me laugh.
Secondly, i bet you smell my hole before if not you wont ask me to throw myself to guys & let them smell my smelly hole when you smell before?
LMFAO ! My name is not AH SLUT !
My girls dint gave me that name, i bet it suits you better (:
Brush off your english & get th meaning clear of wad is SLUT before coming here & act like a dog to bark around. Laughs.
2010 is a bad year for me? Thanks for your greetings!
But it would definitely be a much more worse year to you as i guess cursing pple in sucha way deserves much more retribution uhs?
& i bet you're someone narrow-minded, so sad for you.
Lesbian only, need to be so exaggerating over it?
Ha! Are you still living in 2006? Or worse still, 1995?
Not happy with it? Report to th police lar, i dun give a damned also.
But, if i were to report you, you'll get it more than i do. Wan try?
Dun talk so much down in my tagboard, not happy with me being a lesbian?
Dun jus leave your name down, leave your number down,
Come out & talk, dun be a cyber gangster & act as if you know me damn well.
Last of all, im glad that you know its 2010, so stop acting like so childish, hiding behind th com and act as if you're so power in my tagboard.
Get a life and learn some manners from your parents .
If not, i'll pity your parents for not teaching you well !
Bye, spammer !
Btw, still got one thing, so sad to say, my loved ones all came back to me, arent you jealous? Ha!
P/S : Jus to let you know that i track down your IP address, Ha!
Someone who stayed in BUKIT MERAH ? So coincidence uhs? LOL!
Dun worry, th game jus start only & i'll make it roll ~

Readers, wad a good entertainment we had uhs? Ha! Enjoy (:

02 January, 2010 ; 12:00 AM♥

Hellos Earthlings :D !
Above photos are all taken at th HollyWood Dino Journey (:
Nice one !
I know i looked sucks in all these photos :( Ha!

I met up with Ahtong today (:
Did not went any places today, still th same, all th way at BP.
And, back home (:

There's so much things troubling me nowadays :(
Friendship problems make my life so fcukup !
My true friend left me one by one ~
Wad can i do?
I envy those pple who got their best friends who would be by their side.
& face up with every obstacles together.
As for me? It totally th opposite >.<
Yar, i cant denied its my fault to left without a word, but dun i deserve a chance to mend back?
Is avoiding th only way?
I feel like crying, but nothing came out from my eyes.
I feel like doing those stuffs that are my restrictions, but im afraid.
Best friend? Issit words that came out easily? Written jus like this?
If is this th way, i chose not to have any of them.
Yea, friends do walked in & out of my life, but times changes everything.
When i made a mistake to a friend, i was like being condemned by th whole world :(
Is this wad i deserve?
Every pple wore masks on their faces & how am i supposed to read their mind?
Im getting so fcuked up, trying to seek for my own soul that ran nowhere.
Things that i seen, trying to tell me that i wont be able to find it.
I blame myself.
It hurt so much when i saw wad he wrote, so hurt when i get to know i caused him in this state.
I tried to tell him in a way, that i still cares.
He dint showed any replied. Wad does it mean?
I dint have th courage to apologized to him .
Its been months, you see.
How long it going to last?

Labels: Im sorry

01 January, 2010 ; 11:16 PM♥

Happy New Year Earthlovelings :D !
Bet everyone of my readers do enjoy their night out there uhs? Ha!
No photos or any graphics for this post, as i've some photos taken at Jurong Bird Park today.
But, due to blogger problem, i cant upload any single one. So, shall wait till tmr when i post up all (:

31'Decmeber.
Th very last day of 2009 :D
Prepared around evening, wait for Deping.
Walked over to Janice's place for steamboat (:
There's quite a number of pple at her place.
We drove down to CSC, intend to stable down there but when we reached there, it was like totally packed !
So, shift ourselves back to my Mum's working place ; Ipub (:
As, i dun have enough cash with me & im like super broke !
Drink and craps ~
Yaolong came down but went off awhile on & Andy came down.
Then, Countdown session ! Woos ~
Danced and enjoyed th spraying session!
& jus one particular person get so fed up with th New year text i send. Wth, i find it super lame and childish. Ha! I dun give a damned as if i hardup her boyf for fcuk? LOL!
After that, head over to Coffeeshop nearby as im craving for chicken wings. Laughs.
So, ate there and back to Ipub.
Simply cant stand some pple which they are not singaporeans & keep overtaking Janice's song.
Wth, they're so fcuk up!
And, they're being some sarcastic that i almost shouted at them >.< Eeks !
Closing, cabbed back to BP ; 103.
Slacked there till morning, back home and K.O !

01'Jan'2010 !
Brand new year :D
Wokeup in th early morning 9a.m when i only slept around 6a.m >.< Steaming !
Then, prepared and Aunt came to drove us around 10a.m
Set off to Jurong Bird Park (:
Watched th Hollywood Dinos which make them REAL !
Nice one :D ! Guess over all i enjoyed only this instead of those birds :( Sucks !
Went back home in th afternoon & home, changed and washed up, K.O!

RESOLUTIONS FOR 2010 (:

Find a stable job asap
Learn to see things in a wider way.
Control my temptations ; never to let it overtake.
Get some skills to learn asap.
Learn to think and be mature like a 18yrs old teen.
LEARN TO FACE EVERY SINGLE THING !

--第163天，没有DSXY的日子。
Finally, a brand new year that we went thru.
You'll be out soon, my love (:

Labels: HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR :D

30 December, 2009 ; 11:56 PM♥

I dun denied that we drift this time.
Dun denied that things are getting worse for us this time.
Wad's going on?
Someone who stand by me every now & then, somehow became a stranger to me.
Should i get used to it? Should i move on?
Or should i kept myself in a corner and cry like a small kid?
Mixed feelings kept flashing thru my mind, making me living in hell.
A new year suppose to be a year afresh and anew, but i seem to stand still, i cant move.

Can someone or you, my friend, to tell me wad you really wan?
Tell me wad can i do to make you stay?
Jus let me know, do i have to move on?
If yes, i wont ever bother about it anymore.
Stop letting all these feelings flashed thru my mind, and kept all things aside that concerns you.

Till now, you're still keeping quiet, refused to tell me wad's going wrong.
Nevermind if you let it go, i understand.

I know wad to do, jus one word from you.
Leave or Stay.

29 December, 2009 ; 5:34 PM♥

Hellos Earthlings (:
My cramps is killing me & im having LS sickness :(
Wtf, both coming at one time ! Torturing me so much ~

28'Decmeber.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDY ONG :D !
Had a last minute small celebration for him last night.
Went out only in th evening.
Walk-ed over to plaza together with Deping and Janice.
Brought Andy's cake and presents.
Then, back to 117.
Waited for Janice call, walk-ed over to her place, helped to carry foods and all th stuffs.
Brought down to th BBQ pit.
Waited for everyone to arrive.
Although time was kinda clashed but gladly everything turns out smoothly :D
Then, slacked there & walked over to 103, slacked there awhile and back home.

From now, i tell myself.
Never to trust anyone around me.
NOT ANYONE !
After so much, i had enough & never again.
My life should be simple but why it leads to me to nowhere?
I understand th lies that hide beneath every human.
Another side of their face that they dint shown.
Jus a moment like this make me realised so much.
& i finally understand~
Not anyone will treat you real by their heart.
Jus for th sake of status and fame, they'll do anything.
Every human jus live for th sake of living to drove pple insane;
thats was we called, Realistic.

Hopefully, next year would be a better year for me (:
World turning ; Pple changing.
Im used to it. Ha !
New resolutions for 2010 would be update soon.
So, readers ! Do catch up soon !

--第160天，没有DSXY的日子。
Be patient and it'll be fast, my love.

Labels: Life should'nt be this way ~

27 December, 2009 ; 12:00 AM♥

Specially to that SOMEONE ; MY DEAR FRIEND.

I left my friend, someone who dotes me more than anyone does, someone who never failed to be there when i needed him. Someone who thought of me first than himself.
Someone who kept my secrets without leaking it out. Someone who takes me as his sister. Someone who helped me out with difficulties. Someone who go thru with me these years.

I make a mistake, to leave him alone.
Make things and life worse for him.
Despite saying sorry to me when he make no mistakes, i refused to speak.

I refused to gave him chance to speak at all.
I meant so much to him yet my mind bring me astray ~
I thought i need time, jus abit of time, but unexpectedly, it took almost months.

Now, i lost almost everything.
Im sorry, my friend.

You may not read this at all but i hope my courage would bring me up one day.
I miss th times we used to spend.
Jus when i realised, everything is too late, you wont turn back anymore.
This post is specially for you, my friend.

Labels: Can everything turn back again~